emma's thoughts

Evan Though I Walk Through The Valley Of The Shadow Of Death

Read an article again today that my Mum sent me and it was so encouraging. In the past(well last year really) Ive been afraid/ashamed to talk about the tough experiences Ive been through as I thought it would upset/offend people, but this article really encouraged me to keep sharing and keep being real with God and with other ppl. I would take me too long to write it all out but I'll some it up with quotes.

Basically this guy form YWAM lost both his parents last year, one of them to demecia and one to cancer, but he is so open and remains so close to God and thankful.

'It is not easy to walk through these times. Everything in us wants to cut and run, find another path, locate a hiding place, discover some way to numb the sorrow. But when we choose to walk through it with the Lord, it allows Him and those around us to minister to us. There were times I felt defeated by my situation, and that talking about it, evan writing about it, would not be right because it sounded so discouraging. But in YWAM, both in England and internationally, there have been deaths, and I know many people who have lived through difficult situations. So I hope my experience will give hope and reality.' Rob Hobbs.

He aslo goes onto say(man this is beginning to sound like an essay!) that were not the only ones living in the valley and that there are others around us who God wants us to reach out to.

'Were noot the only ones living in the Valley of the shadow of death, and God calls His people to help those in need and find ways to encourage poeple out of physical and spiritual poverty.'

Yesterday I was walking home from town and felt like asking God for an opportunity to help a homeless person! But at the same time I was thinking-'well it was a nice thought but it would really be more convenient if I could just go home now!'
But God has a sense of humour and as I was walking there was a guy near the scary doll shop at the top of gillygate and I was quite annoyed cos I knew I hadto do something! So I looked around for a sanwhich shop or something and there was nothing, so I ended up going to Wackers and buying sasauge and chips and got quite annoyed cos I hadto wait. As I wlaked back up gillygate I got really scared that he wouldnt want my food or Id chicken out! But I was praying so hard that I could do something!

Anyway I gave him the food and it was the most humbling experience of my life I think! He wasnt evan in a position to say no! He was so desperate just for somehting to eat! I was only there for a split second but I felt his pain and felt like crying. I said a quick prayer that He would know Jesus loved him and that was it. It was that simple. So why do we hold back so much, why do we walk away? When its that simple and it makes such a differnce?

Anyway walking home I saw the most incredible sunset and I only saw it bcos I was there at exactly the right time and I knew that God loved me and that He wanted to bless me :)

posted by emma's blog @ 02:51