emma's thoughts

Some Lyrics to sum up this term....

Uncomfortably Slow-Newton Faulkner

Travelling again
I know exactly how its gonna end
the routine day dream starts as I get off
Im holding up the queue
because my ticket wont go through
I know it should be simple but its not

so dont take my photograph
cuase I dont wanna know how it looks to feel like this
as cars and people pass
it feels like standing still but I know
im just moving uncomfortably slow

yea

slow

somethings gotta change
I know im lucking in a lot of ways
so why do i want more than what I have
brace myself to hear the lies I
wonder if they know I dont get the jokes
but I just need to laugh

so dont take my photograph
cause I dont wanna know how it looks to feel like this
as cars and people pass
it feels like standing still but I know
im just moving uncomfortably slow

yea

slow

im just moving uncomforably slow ..down
There's infinite detail
When you break it down
it all becomes simple how
it all become clearer now

so dont take my photograph
cause I dont wanna know how it looks to feel like this
as cars and people pass
it feels like standing still but I know
im just moving subconsciously
one day I guess ill be
the man that you think you see

im just moving uncomfortably slow

yea

slow

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I Need Something-Newton Faulkner

I need something to believe in
Cos I don't believe in myself
I'm sick and tired of getting nowhere
Guess it'll all work out

And I don't mind anymore
And I don't mind anymore

And I need someone to put my trust in
Cos I ain't trusting myself
And I'm scared of failure
So scared of success
Guess it'll all work out

And I don't mind anymore
And I don't mind anymore
Ooohhhhhh yeah
And I don't mind anymore
And I don't mind anymore

I need something to believe in
Cos I don't believe in myself
I'm sick and tired of getting nowhere
Guess it'll all work out

And I don't mind anymore
And I don't mind anymore*

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Saviour-Tim Hughes and 29th Chapter

I wait in the silence to hear your voice, just to hear your call,
And I catch the intonation of each syllable as it falls.
No-one can replace it, my words cannot attain it,
Your love has bound us without condition I fumble for words to explain it.
Warm me with your love, thaw my numb belief
Lift me from the floor and place me back up on my feet.
You renew my strength so I can walk and not faint,
my hope is In you, you have my heart, my faith.

Where would I be without you,
my skin crawls with the very thought of a world without you.
And even if I die I know that I cant be without you
cos the after life mean that after life I'll never be without you.
But for now I'll focus on the time on earth we'll share,
and when the silence falls, you're there.
Still waiting to care, for any load I have to bare.
So in the silence of these moments my heart whispers these prayers.

When hope is lost I'll call you saviour,
When pain surrounds I'll call you healer,
When the silence falls you'll be the song within my heart.

Insecurities had me going insane, I'd never been so lame,
Your voice to me was calming like rain on a window pain.
Not lusting or a flirt, never putting others first,
what a brother didn't deserve you covered with your loving words.
You reached down and embraced me, without you, I'm flakey.
But now I'm a new man cos your love completely remade me.
Everywhere you be the song of my heart, regardless.
Cos you are the light of life that got sparked in my darkness.

In spite of all my failures and mistakes, my shame and disgrace, you took my life and covered it with grace.
I know that all my steps are ordered by you,
and so I step with confidence because your love is true.
When I'm tossed by life's winds and waves,
I'm not afraid cos you got power and you're strong to save.
Not too concerned if my friends disown me,
I know late into the night when the tears fall you'll hold me.

When hope is lost, I'll call you saviour,
When pain surrounds, I'll call you healer,
When the silence falls you'll be the song within my heart.

I will praise you,
I will praise you,
When the tears fall, still I will sing to you.

I will praise you,
Jesus praise you,
Through the suffering still I will sing.

I will praise you,
I will praise you,
When the tears fall, still I will sing to you.

I will praise you,
Jesus praise you,
Through the suffering still I will sing to you.
Always I'll sing for you.

posted by emma's blog @ 02:35 0 Comments

Christmas :)

Its nearly christmas-yey :) Jesus came! I'm really glad He did! God is so good!

posted by emma's blog @ 02:24 0 Comments

Well as I havent updated for 4 months, thought it was time I wrote something on here...

To summarise... Im back at uni, its been very tough but starting to get easier, Ive really struggled with my faith-more than ever before but realised that God remains faithful nomatter how much we think we've screwed things up. Thats about it really! lol!

posted by emma's blog @ 04:40 0 Comments

Not done much since summer soul. Met up with some school friends, went to see Harry Potter, done some housework, tried to get some work with people at church(but only got one days work so far), thought about getting a part time job but decided not to for the time being-might get a job at Morrisons in York when it opens, but not sure.

For the next two weeks were having a family holiday, but staying at home and going for day trips into the lakes. Then still trying to decide what to do with August. I'd really like to go back to York at some point and then go and stay with Lucy in Stowemarket and visit Gemma and invited Bek to stay aswell cos she wanted to go walking in the lakes. But not sure if I can afford it all. Will haveto see, but need to decide soon. Oh well, whatever happens, I guess its all in Gods hands.

Momentum started yesterday, kindve miss it :(

posted by emma's blog @ 03:01 0 Comments

Not posted for a while... Not much to say really lol! Been back in Kendal for the past week. Went to a wedding which was nice and last night went to a concert of John de Jong and some Chek/chech/cheque(sp????) dudes-they were awesome musicians!
Tommorrow I will be returning to the land of York to do summer soul.

posted by emma's blog @ 06:52 0 Comments

Oh dear :(

Emma did a silly thing! Cant believe it happened :s Was supposed to be going on the ampleforth quiet day, but slept through my alarm and got woken up by a call from Sharon Lusty asking me where I was! I didnt answer this in time so it went to answer phone. I feel so bad cos the people there are lovely and the kindve people I hate to let down and it wouldve been such a nice day! Bah! Annoying! I dont feel like I can go again either cos Im probably in the chaplaincys bad books! Ah well, I could always persuade someone else with a car to go!

posted by emma's blog @ 02:59 0 Comments

Sleep deprivation and end of termness...

Man alive! im SO tired! But I dont really have the motivation to do anything about it! So many good conversations are to be had from staying up till the early hours! But unfortunately my body clock has been set to getting up early for the past 3 months or something stupid! Something in me cant physically stay asleep after 8.30/9.00!

Everyone seems to be struggling at the moment and have been for some time. It feels like punching against a brick wall at times! Every time I find some joy again or some motivation to enjoy life I realise that no-one else is! I think without God how would any of us carry on?! When we try and do things in our own strength, its never enough, but learning to do things in Gods strength is also hard and I dont always understand how to do that, but I guess were not meant to right?! Any hoo, time for some lyrics I think!

Like the angels, brenton brown

When I am sinking down, when I am lost at sea
No solace to be found, no ground beneath my feet
I turn to you as i go down, i reach for you through roaring waves
My only hope is in Your arms, my only prayer is that you'd save me

Cause you make me soar like the angels
You let me walk on the water
You let me run with white horses
Jesus my strength when all is gone
You are my strength when all is gone

When i am all alone, no land is in my sight
All others lost from view, and comes the darkening night
I reach for you as i go down,
i look to you through wind and waves
My only hope is in Your arms,
my only prayer is that you'd save me

Cause you make me soar like the angels
You let me walk on the water
You let me run with white horses
Jesus my strength when all is gone
You are my strength when all is gone

posted by emma's blog @ 02:06 0 Comments