"Prodigal"-Casting Crowns
Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again
And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand
Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again
Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave
Back In York
I have returnded to yorkshire country! It feels strange to be honest. I'm so exhausted and woke up feeling so ill-was struggling to think of what actually wasnt wrong with me! but now been up for a while, feeling a little better and reminded of how faithful God is and our worship for Him shouldnt be conditional. He deserves our praise for who He is and through offering our lives to Him we will probably be blessed in the process, but thats not why we do it. So if we feel rubbsih, the most uplifting thing we can do is to worship anyway, cos God is awesome and is so worthy of our praise! Its not like Hes standing over us forcing us to do it, its always a choice, but Hes gently calling us to come into His presence, spend time with Him etc and as chrsitians there is something in us that is longing to do that, because He loves us and we love Him-woo!
3 posts in one day! I do have a life, honest!
| You Are Rowlf the Dog |
Mellow and serious, you enjoy time alone cultivating your talents.
You're a cool dog, and you always present a relaxed vibe.
A talented pianist, you can play almost anything - especially songs by Beethoven.
"My bark is worse than my bite, and my piano playing beats 'em both." |
Satined Glass Masquerade-Casting Crowns
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
Happy Birthday to me!
Well I'm now 21-as of wednesday! But haveto admit, it really doesnt feel any different. Had a really nice day! Went for coffee with Mel and Ali which was a complete surprise and then went for a picinic with my mum and sister. We went to grasmere which was really nice and then in the evening went to the Dun Horse for a very very nice meal. I can honestly say it was the best food Ive ever eaten!
Going back to York on Monday and gonna have a picnic and go out for drinks on Friday, altho I think I went overboard with the amount of ppl I invited who wont be able to come!
You.
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Not as easy as you might think.
1. Where is your cell phone? Kitchen
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife/lover?
Non-existent
3. Your hair? plaited
4. Your mother? Wonderful
5. Your father? Unique
6. Your favorite item? music!
7. Your dream last night? Sureal
8. Your favorite drink? wine
9. Your dream car? sporty
10. The room you are in? hallway
11. Your ex? non-existent
12. Your fear? iscolation
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? happy
14. Who did you hang out with last night? family
15. What you're not? outgoing
19. The last thing you did? coughed!
20. What are you wearing? clothes
21. Your favorite book? bible
22. The last thing you ate? cake
24. Your mood? relaxed
25. Your friends? special
26. What are you thinking about right now? music
27. Your car? peugeot(sp?)
28. What are you doing at the moment? sitting
29. Your summer? difficult
30. Your relationship status? Single
31. What is on your tv? nothing
32. When is the last time you laughed? today
33. Last time you cried? March???
34. School? rubbish
Copy.
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Thursday already! So what have I been upto? Hmm(tries to remember), ah yes! Tuesday-spent the day with Ellie in Ambleside, which was very lovely, although the bus fair was £9-rudeness!! and it didnt evan get me all the way home! Then Weds I had my hair cut and met Becky and Miriam, which was also lovely, we just sat in Cafe Nero and talked about lots of random stuff-including politics lol! And 'Liberal' and 'Conservative' christianity!-wasnt aware there was such a thing! Ah well, you learn something new every day! Then came home and was all set to have a boring night in and then ended up going over to Beckys and watching 'The Holiday'-Jude Law is hot!! It was good and Jude law is hot!! It has Jude law in and he's hot!
Anyway, today wasnt all that great, had too much time to think and felt quite unwell but it didnt really develope into anything. Went into town to try and find some birthday presents, but found nothing! Then came home and felt sorry for myself and got annoyed at the lack of space at home! And got sad about life in general, but then I prayed and innitially nothing seemed to change and then suddenly I felt fine again! So there you go!
Tommorrow I'm meeting the lovely Elizabeth for coffee :) Then possibly going to Manchester on Saturday, if I can find someone to go with, to try and find something for my birthday!
Happy Easter!
Yey I think Easter is officially my favourate time of year! Like how awesome is Jesus! Could never really say it enough! Had a really nice Sunday and was loving being back at church and got to see some friends again who I havent seen since christmas and evan before then. Then today me and my mum and dad went to Illkley moor where I went as a girl guide! It was very prettyful! Then tommorrow I'm going to Ambleside to meet my friend from 6th form and meeting up with some more ppl on Weds-one of which I havent seen in over a year! Should be fun!
Back in the joy that is 'Kendal'
Ah Kendal life! It is actually extremely beautiful at this time of year! Id completely forgotten! Evan more beautiful than Scarborough where Sarah and Helen went! without evan telling Emma! Ah well I will get over it!
-Actually on reflection I did have my sisters to stay... Just Emma being silly!
Feeling quite optimistic that I will survive two weeks in this place as long as the weather holds out. Altho I'm at a loss as to what I can do for my 21st, as most of my friends wont be around then:( I will be all alone :( But I guess I can have a nice day with my family and at least I wont have a filling on my birthday this year! Am looking forward to seeing my friends again actually, theres alot of ppl I want to catch up with, just need to find some energy and motivation from somewhere.
Be Still My Soul (trad hymn,Amy Grant)
Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Hmm quite liking being alone in the house now! It gives me an excuse to go and pester(sp?) other ppl and invade their houses! And when I get up I can play my music however loud I want! :) And my sisters are coming tommorrow and theyll be no peace then so I better make the most of it! I'm starting to get a sore throat... Helen I tried to post a comment on your blog but it wouldnt let me! Basically I said... "Yeh I had problems with my voice before I came to uni and yeh the best thing was not singing, as hard as that is! Also gargling with water's a good one and throat lozenges can help." I realise how sad I am for writing it on here! xx
