Back on the battlefield :(
Well I'm back in York :) Its so good although have realised that last time I may have been in cloud cuckoo land! And that actually for some reason things have decided to be really tough in York just when I needed them not to be! But I shouldnt really take it personally. It just sucks that when I thought id come through about the toughest experience if my life, I come back and the battle continues!!! Although I do have quite bad PMT! I wont tell you what I did last night! La de da, no-ones gonna comment are they? lol! They havent for about 10 posts so why would now be any different! Come on ppl!
FEEDER LYRICS
"Just The Way I'M Feeling"
Love in, love out, find the feeling
Scream in, scream out, time for healing
You feel the moments gone too soon,
You're watching clouds come over you.
Torn in two,
You close your eyes for some place new,
Torn in two
[Chorus:]
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round,
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling
Glow in, burn out,
Lost the feeling
Bruise in, you bruise out,
Nurse the bleeding
Torn in two,
Each time we bruise
[Chorus]
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling
Two different views,
As words confuse and break
I can't get out,
There's no way out of here,
I can't get clear.
Love in, love out
Find the feeling.
[Chorus]
Yeah, yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.....
No room for pancakes :(
Feeling a little better today. Went to the dentist in the morning and Mum hadto pay £15 for the dentist to tell me that my teeth were fine:( how rude?! But thats what you get for nt being a student for a year. We then went to the supermarket and bought lots of nice food-nt sure if that was a good thing or nt because nice as it was, we ate most of it this afternoon-oops! And didnt have room for pancakes:( :( :( :( :( :( :( so were having them tommorrow instead. Now I feel really fat! But it hasnt really put me off doing it again!
My Mum also bought me 3 dvds for £5.99, Vanity Fair, Sense and Sensibility and Shakespeare in Love, so watched Vanity Fair this afternoon. It is such a sad film but Reese Witherspoon is amazing in it.
Ill:(
Emma's poorly:( Ive got a sore throat and a cold and its not very nice:( I'm also feeling generally under the weather and pretty down about life in general but nevermind... I feel really small and insignificant and yeh dunno what else to say.
| Your Brain is Purple |
Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself. |
Hmm...
Been thinking a bit about myself and some of the things I do and wondering if I'm actually addicted to some things,
ie computer, food, baths and other things I'm nt gonna mention, but like I dont really consider them a problem until I try not to do them and then I get really agitated and my sister is constantly telling me that I'm addicted to the internet (but I shouldnt really let that influence me too much lol!) But she keeps going past me muttering 'seriously addicted'. Lord please help me to love her and not commit murder!!
More Lyrics....
EVANESCENCE LYRICS
"Bring Me To Life"
(feat. Paul McCoy)
how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
chorus
frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead
all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
When I needed A Saviour-Matt Redman
When I Needed A Saviour-Matt Redman
VERSE 1:
Looking back on time,
Seeking to remind myself of all Your mercies,
I can testify, on every page of life,
Your grace just keeps unfolding and unfolding.
CHORUS A:
You made me fruitful in the land of my suffering, Father.
You made me hopeful in the place of no hope;
Poured oil of gladness on the wounds of my struggling, and You
Poured oil of healing on the depths of my soul.
CHORUS B:
When I needed a Saviour, You were there, You were there.
When I needed a Healer, You were there, You were there.
When I needed a my Father, You were there, You were there,
You are here, You are here.
VERSE 2:
Ever since the day
I looked upon the cross I've realised Your mercy.
For every stage of life, sweet and bitter times,
Your love just keeps unfolding, and unfolding.
Back in the Kendal
Am back home and err cant think of much to say.... Was home by about 4 on Saturday, then went back over the pennines the nxt day to Rotherham for my Nan's birthday, which was rather nice. Today Ive just been lazing about really, went to the doctors in the afternoon and memories of last term came flooding back. She was asking all these questions which in fairness she needed to ask, but I was surprised at how hard I found it. Left the surgery and wanted to cry:( But then went for coffee with my Mum and it was all ok.
| What Gibbard Means |
G is for Grungy
I is for Impassioned
B is for Bewildering
B is for Brilliant
A is for Alluring
R is for Remarkable
D is for Dazzling |
I find this one quite amusing:)
What the website says my name means:-
| What Emma Means |
E is for Explosive
M is for Mesmerizing
M is for Magnificent
A is for Ambitious |
Not sure this really sums me up atall but I cant think of anything better.
Going Home
Going home today to have a rest before returning to York properly. Feel quite sad cos I've had such an amazing two weeks but it will be nice to spend time with my family again. Man I'm tired to think of anything else to say, but I'm also happy at the same time as feeling sad lol!:)
New House
Well we found a house for next year for 5 people. There's gonna be Lucy,Lydia,Helen M and Louise and were gonna live on fountayne st. Its quite a good house and therefore the rent is slightly more but I dont think that really matters cos its balanced out by the niceness of the house. It has a garage that could maybe fit two cars-for Lu and Lou, nice sized bedrooms-altho one is quite small but reasonable really, a really nice kitchen and bathrooms, a lovely back where we could maybe have socials in summer and a dining room in a conservatory. So Emma is very excited as she did become quite insistent about this house. Its just a shame its not the one on the same road as Sarah,Helen and Becky but then you cant always have evrything you want.
Houses
So been looking for houses yesterday and today. It is quite exhausting. I am now shattered! We have found a few relly nice houses but we are second in line for every single one. But trusting that its all in Gods hands. Found a really nice georgian house that hasnt been refurbished yet but it all seems very above board and the people seem to have alot of experience of refurbishing houses. Looked round another really nice one with lots of character and really near college but it is probably gone now:( Oh well they'll be something out there!
I love York
Yey loving being back in York. So Monday I went for lunch with Sarah, we went to Varsity and had some wraps with salad and chips-yummy and really cheap! Then went shopping and I bought Helens birthday present and sorted out my contct lenses(or that may have been before lunch). Anyway it was really nice to catch up. Then Tuesday met up with lovely Gemma in daytime and went to starbucks, then in the evening it was Helens birthday party at the independent. Then yesterday just lazed about in the day and went to Sarahs for tea and church-which was amazing! It was so cool to see Rachel and Andrew my pastors again! And really felt welcomed back and like I totally belong there-so cool:)
